The Devil...A Fiddle....What?

I was flying through the day.  I got a considerable amount of exercise and my food intake was exactly as planned.  Then 6:30 came around.  I had an uncontrollable urge to eat junk.  I am talking severe.  So bad that I made the decision in my head that I was going for it.  Twice.  The evil guy in my head was winning.  I started to make the arrangements to leave the house probably on my way to McDonald's.  I never made it out of the house thank goodness.  I would have been so mad at myself.  This is the first time in 8 days where I had a serious issue with anything like this.

It is amazing what you can talk yourself into in your head when you have a problem.  I actually was telling myself that I deserved something.  Really?  Stupid.  After the urge is gone I can see how dumb that is.  I didn't at the time.  Instead of actually going through with it I ate a reasonable bowl of pasta.  I know pasta is not a great choice and I am working on some additional quick snack ideas to have laying around.  I am not all that concerned with the pasta thing right now.  My concern is how I can't be reasonable when I have an urge to eat crap.

It's like the song with the devil in Georgia and the fiddle and souls except I am dealing with fat and cheeseburgers.

One thing I am going to have to adjust in my current eating habits are the amount of carbs I am eating.  I know that is an issue and at some point I have to address that as well.  I am eating way to much bread.  Different from other attempts at losing the weight I am now willing to cook a little.  I have learned some stuff from my little brother and cooking is not out of the question.  That is the next thing I need to work on.  Creating a better and bigger menu to work with.  There is a good chance I am getting sick of what I am doing.  Ok the voice in my head has spoken.  Goodnight.

One Step At A Time - Reluctantly

I just finished doing the workout that I did yesterday again.  To my surprise it was more difficult today.  I had not considered that before hand.  It still went fine and I added an extra set of each weight lifting type.  I also went on a walk with Vinny this morning.  The back was really bad when I got finished today.  It was not all that bad during the actual activities though.

Now I am starting to get to the point in my mind that I want to conquer the world.  This is a big challenge for me.  Need to learn to accept and appreciate small victories along the big trip.  I am beginning to dream big in terms of the results I expect to get this week.  Trying to figure out what would be an amount that would make me happy.  Wish I was the type who could just work hard and appreciate the results that occur.  Knowing that I did my job and I am on the way.  I am working on that.  I am also trying to find a good book to read for motivation.  If anyone has any suggestions.........please holla.

Ch cha cha Changes

Well, I woke up today and my back is real sore.  I expected that after doing more physical activity than I have done in over a year.  The thing that has me wondering a bit is the fact that I am totally worn out.  I am going to do the same type of working out today and just push through it.  I think it will be one of those things where once I get going I will be fine.

Though I have been able to control my eating I believe I need to make some changes.  I have never been much of a breakfast eater.  It is very common for me to not eat at all until 2 o'clock in the afternoon.  I just do not wake up hungry in most cases.  I really have no clue how metabolism works.  I think it is likely that I should be eating something in the morning particularly if I am going to be working out.

I am going to start reading up more on the science of healthy eating.  After all I am trying to become an expert in this.  Who wants to be a dumb expert?