I was flying through the day. I got a considerable amount of exercise and my food intake was exactly as planned. Then 6:30 came around. I had an uncontrollable urge to eat junk. I am talking severe. So bad that I made the decision in my head that I was going for it. Twice. The evil guy in my head was winning. I started to make the arrangements to leave the house probably on my way to McDonald's. I never made it out of the house thank goodness. I would have been so mad at myself. This is the first time in 8 days where I had a serious issue with anything like this.
It is amazing what you can talk yourself into in your head when you have a problem. I actually was telling myself that I deserved something. Really? Stupid. After the urge is gone I can see how dumb that is. I didn't at the time. Instead of actually going through with it I ate a reasonable bowl of pasta. I know pasta is not a great choice and I am working on some additional quick snack ideas to have laying around. I am not all that concerned with the pasta thing right now. My concern is how I can't be reasonable when I have an urge to eat crap.
It's like the song with the devil in Georgia and the fiddle and souls except I am dealing with fat and cheeseburgers.
One thing I am going to have to adjust in my current eating habits are the amount of carbs I am eating. I know that is an issue and at some point I have to address that as well. I am eating way to much bread. Different from other attempts at losing the weight I am now willing to cook a little. I have learned some stuff from my little brother and cooking is not out of the question. That is the next thing I need to work on. Creating a better and bigger menu to work with. There is a good chance I am getting sick of what I am doing. Ok the voice in my head has spoken. Goodnight.
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