What's In MY Head

When I see really fat people talk about being fat I have a hard time understanding them.  I often see people complain about being teased or having people stair at them.  I just haven't really experienced that.  Maybe I over look stuff to some point but I do not think I am being naive.  It just isn't the way I live I guess.  I am not going to say something stupid like it is OK with me being fat or it hasn't caused problems.  My mission to lose is simply about health.  I want to live longer and I need to get past this back problem.  It is as simple as that.  When I first began this last quest to lose the weight a few months back I was at an all time high of 525 pounds.  I purchased a scale that could handle the weight and I checked it weekly.  To say the least the process started slow.  I'd lose a pound here and there and then sometimes gain.  I became discouraged and stopped looking.  I did not stop eating more healthy.  I knew I was losing something slowly.  I had to be considering my size and what I was eating.  I could tell some changes in the way my clothes fit.  After I came up with this idea and set up this blog I decided I should weigh myself to track progress.  I even put it off a few hours from when I made that decision.  I can't do a good job of describing how shocked I was to see I had lost 40 pounds.  That was with clothes on and everything.  I am way to obsessive to wait a month to check the scale again so I am going to try to limit myself to weighing in once a week.  Needless to say that 40 pounds makes me very happy.